In His Perfect Time
I always believe that God knows what our hearts long for even before we ask him. He already have a grand plan for us. We just need to believe in his perfect time. Patience is a virtue as they say.
This year, I lost count how many times I prayed for guidance, for enlightenment, for removing pain and hatred in my heart. At one point, I asked him, why? not why me, but why flood me with tons of character provoking situations in uninterrupted succession. I was like, "Oh, God, please give me more strength to go on because I'm too heart broken and fragile. I'm not losing faith I'm just too tired to fight back."
I thought it would never end. But it did. And then, the whole cycle started again. It felt like a roller-coaster ride. There's nothing I can do but sit back and enjoy the ride and let God control the gears of my life. And I did. I learned to let go and let God do it. Eventually, I began to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I did a happy dance. My life is normal again. No more sleepless nights. I can smile again.
The day has finally come to say to myself, "Tracy, you did good this year. You survived. You made it without breaking. In His perfect time, you are whole again and this time around, you are stronger than ever and you are very much ready to continue the good life".